It’s not I like you or that this is amazing. It’s not falling in love with a feeling, or smiling uncontrollably.
It’s being aware in a particular moment, in a small instance where you know that this person has all of you and that they are going to mean so much to you. It’s liberating but daunting at the same time, because their flame can provide all of the warmth you’ve ever needed, but also burn your edges if you ever decided to take advantage of them.
It’s knowing that this love is going to take you places, that you’ve never been before. It’s going to crawl into the crevices of previous heartbreak and replenish the pain, tears that pushed in an old bedside table from when you were 13. It’s going to be the waters that save you during the drought. It’s going to surround you, it’s current softly touching your fingertips, before it decides to envelop you, carefully, but unapologetically.
In my wildest dreams, I never thought love was like this. I never thought that it would be this peculiar feeling that the world is within just you and this special person.
I always reached into a thought it was a fairytale that had so much pain, passion and sadness to it. That it was this movie that tested and challenged two people, by throwing rocks and obstacles to obstruct their love. But oh, how hopelessly foolish I was.
I can never really commentate on what love is, and what type of love is right. But this love, it’s really something. He not only amazes me, but we fall in and out of each other, like the perfect puzzle.
And I can’t say whether I’m in love with him or not, but some strong feeling is letting me know,
that he’s really going to matter to me.